Thankful for Jesus

As I was tucking Ellie in bed on Thanksgiving evening, I suggested we say a quick prayer to God telling Him what we were/are thankful for. I said that I was thankful that God gave me such wonderful friends and a beautiful family and especially thankful for Ellie, my first child who is also my first love. Then I asked Ellie what she was most thankful for.

She said, "I'm thankful for Jesus."
"Me too, sweetie. Me too."

Ellie and Kate

Eating Dove Bars again.

Great Expectations...again!

1. Kate will be here on Monday
2. Dove Bars...the best frozen novelty dessert ever!

Bread and Water

People have been asking me what I'd like to eat after I giving birth. I no longer care. As long as it's food, I will eat it.

Gestational Diabetes requires me to stay away from sweets like fruit and desserts and simple carbs like rice and pasta...that's basically my main diet. =)

Swelling of my feet and ankles requires me to stay away from anything salty or caffienated...my back up diet.

The flatulance/gas I've had requires me to stay away from vegatables, beans, and fried foods.

My God! What is there left for me to eat? Jail food! But if I'm really good, I can have a glass of milk or a piece of fruit in the middle of the frickin' night when all I want to do at that time is to sleep.

I feel hungry.

Jack

My nephew had surgery earlier today. He had a condition called Pyloric Stenosis. You can look it up to find out more info about it.

Our family went to visit him today. He was loaded with morphine to keep him comfortable. And he awoke in time for a diaper change and his first feeding after surgery. And I saw his tiny battle scar.

Although I know he is going to be fine from now on, I couldn't help but cry for him and even the baby he was sharing a room with who also had surgery today for the same condition. Jack is such a trooper...such a good boy.

Please pray for him in the next couple of days as he recovers. Pray that he will adjust smoothly with his feedings and he will find joy in eating again. Pray for my sister and Alex as well, that God will give them strength in many forms that only He can give so they can give their best to Jack.

Ellie's Leaf Pile

Ellie and I took advantage of today's beautiful weather by raking the leaves into a gigantic pile. This is why I didn't want to rake the leaves for awhile. I dreamt about jumping in my own pile of leaves since I grew up in an apartment half my life.

I'm so thankful that Ellie and Kate will have their own pile of leaves to jump into every Fall.

Robes

Does anyone know of a good place to buy a robe? I think that may be the one thing missing in my hospital bag. I do have 2 robes, but both are too bulky to wear...one is terry cloth...kind of feels like a towel, the other one is a long thick fleece. I'm looking for one that hits at the knee, maybe with a cute pattern on it.

No one seems to carry robes anymore.

Ellie's Mercedes

Ellie sat in her first red Mercedes. Check out the photos at darthjader.

I realize even more how much she loves to be pampered.

She amazes me every day...

Snow Day

I was having a crappy morning until I saw the snow falling from the sky. Of course, I don't have to commute downtown to work, so I always enjoy the cold and snow from my cozy little house...tee hee hee.

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday: Ellie and I took a nice stroll through the neighborhood collecting the fallen leaves on the ground. Our mission was to collect as many different types of leaves as possible. Ellie, in particular, was on the hunt for a "blue" leaf...interesting girl, she is. I, on the other hand, sought out purple leaves, but we could not find any. We did find a Ginko leaf which was odd because there were no Ginko trees in the area. We liked to think it made a wonderful journey on our path just for us. The leaves we collected are now being pressed between pages in heavy books, which were probably once their great great great grandfathers. How ironic. Once the leaves are flattened out, we will assemble them together with these pictures in a big photo frame to remember the day we went on a hunt for the mysterious blue leaf.






Today: Jae and I sort of have an inkling as to what to expect from Ellie once Kate arrives. We went to visit Jack and company this morning and as we spent time together. Ellie was so good with Jack...she stared at him for what seemed like hours, showed him how to play on his playmat, and made wonderful observations about him..."he looks tired, he's awake now, he's hungry, he's saying, 'I love you'."
But I can also see the conflict within Ellie...stirring madly. She loves loves loves babies and as you can see from the pictures below, she adores Jack. He truly is someone to be squeezed and treasured. At the same time, Ellie made it very clear as not to forget her as well by running around in hysterics and climbing into his playmat. As Koreans say, she has become cold rice...or at least that's how she feels and that makes me feel sad.
As much as we will fear for Kate's life when she's next to Ellie (I'm not sure Ellie knows what "gentle" means...tee hee hee) , we will also have to make doubly sure Ellie knows and feels she has not been forgotten, less loved, or replaced. Those thoughts alone are enough of a threat that she'd act out on her sister, which I've heard is very common. But we will get through it somehow and I know Ellie is going to be a big help and an awesome big sister...she is going to be so proud the day Kate arrives.



Look at that tummy!!!